(no subject)
One of the most exhausting things about my job is doing HIV testing. It doesn't matter how many people, or who, but I find that it's emotionally and physcially exhausting to do it. I know it's important. I know why it's important, but I think it is probably the hardest part of my job.
Everytime I do it, the process itself gets easier, but I still come home completely wiped out. The only part that's really changed is that I'm not stressing over procedure anymore, but it's still a difficult process.
Then again, if it became less stressful, I would worry that I'd become nonchalant about it, or immune to it. That I might forget what it feels like to be on the other side of the table for a while. I'd worry that I'd become insensitive.
Meanwhile, I'd like a backrub and some serious cuddling right now. That might help me feel better.
Everytime I do it, the process itself gets easier, but I still come home completely wiped out. The only part that's really changed is that I'm not stressing over procedure anymore, but it's still a difficult process.
Then again, if it became less stressful, I would worry that I'd become nonchalant about it, or immune to it. That I might forget what it feels like to be on the other side of the table for a while. I'd worry that I'd become insensitive.
Meanwhile, I'd like a backrub and some serious cuddling right now. That might help me feel better.