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geminigirl ([personal profile] geminigirl) wrote2003-03-13 12:30 am

An HIV related emotional roller coaster

A lot of my life focuses on HIV. Some days that's harder than others. Today it's been a roller coaster ride.

Today I've been angry about HIV...

  • Angry because I should get another HIV test. (And sure, this is preventable, and my risk is pretty minimal, but I'd be lying if I said none.


  • Angry because I've written two comments today about people getting HIV tests. Which makes me crazy for no known reason...


  • Angry because people I love and care about are sick. Which just plain sucks.


  • and because sometimes, my job makes me crazy.


  • At the same time, sometime I question the legitimacy of my anger. Which is probably silly, but it's hard not to.

    And then, I read my friends page and saw [livejournal.com profile] rivka's post...where she pointed out this page which was funny and made me laugh. And brightened my mood considerably.

    It's a roller coaster...some days are harder than others. Especially with an emotionally charged issue like the one I work with. It's good to be reminded to laugh.

    But somedays, I wish I could be out of a job.