An HIV related emotional roller coaster

[geminigirl]

A lot of my life focuses on HIV. Some days that's harder than others. Today it's been a roller coaster ride.

Today I've been angry about HIV...

Angry because I should get another HIV test. (And sure, this is preventable, and my risk is pretty minimal, but I'd be lying if I said none.

Angry because I've written two comments today about people getting HIV tests. Which makes me crazy for no known reason...

Angry because people I love and care about are sick. Which just plain sucks.

and because sometimes, my job makes me crazy.

At the same time, sometime I question the legitimacy of my anger. Which is probably silly, but it's hard not to.

And then, I read my friends page and saw rivka's post...where she pointed out this page which was funny and made me laugh. And brightened my mood considerably.

It's a roller coaster...some days are harder than others. Especially with an emotionally charged issue like the one I work with. It's good to be reminded to laugh.

But somedays, I wish I could be out of a job.

Comments

[cyan-blue.livejournal.com]

*Hugs*

Thanks for sharing those comics, I'm gonna pass along the URL to my fairy godfathers!

[rivka.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I know what you mean. Glad I could help a little.

[ruralrob.livejournal.com]

Hey - I can relate to what youre saying in a funny kind of way (I'm a diseased pariah myself) because you have to strike a balance between keeping the spotlight on HIV and not letting it dominate your life. That goes for whether you are poz or not. Know what I mean?