Future Plans

Ever since I was like 12, I've had my eyes on getting my PhD. I had no idea in what, although if you look at what I do, what I've done...public health is overwhelmingly sensible. And I like it...it's been sort of in the back of mine as a possibility for a while, and more and more it's moving forward and settling up front as "that's the right thing to do."

For some reason, it's been making me mopey today. There's just no way I'll be able to afford going back to school. Not now, not for another twenty years at least. Which is an incredibly depressing thought. I suppose it's likely that I could find some funding to go back eventually, but it looks so bleak.

There aren't that many PhD programs in what I want to do...and I'm kind of into the idea of staying the the Boston-DC corridor, which is in and of itself another challenge. It doesn't hugely limit my choices...

But it's just depressing...the whole thing.

Worth it?

All the HIV testing I've done recently...I do risk assessment with each of the people...and one of the things we look at is frequency of condom use. Overwhelmingly the answers were "some of the time" "rarely" or "never"

So I'm kind of disheartened. When I look at those numbers, when I see the huge numbers of people not using condoms, I wonder...is it worth it? Is what I do worth it? Does it really matter?