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I got called to the carpet today at work...for five or six different reasons. Among them, our Admin Assistant couldn't sort out some of the data entry stuff that he needs to do. Oh, and my boss scheduling meetings at one site, thinking it was another. She mentioned Val at Site X...I don't work with anyone named Val at site X, I work with Val at site Y, and with Rachel and Sarah and Dana at site Y. Somehow she managed to take the phone numbers for both site x and site y, and confuse them. Val was asking about me though; she's the person I got Betamonster from. I'll have to get some new pictures for her-he's so much bigger than the ones from November and December. I am so grateful for not having to deal with SPSS much of the time right now. That was easily resolved. Less easily resolved is that my boss has noticed that I'm just not into things the way I was a few months ago. She mentioned that I'm not on top of things the way I used to be. She asked if I was bored. And I couldn't answer. I am bored. And frustrated. And sort of unchallenged. I want to be doing similar things but different; I love working with young people but I'm starting to feel disconnected from them more and more. I'm at a place where I'd sort of rather be doing technical assistance type stuff-working with grown ups more, although not exclusively. I'm hoping this will pass, but I'm honestly thinking about looking for a new job...anyone in/near DC know someone looking for someone who does the kind of work I do? I'd sort of like to be doing more policy work, more research, more technical assistance stuff...I love working with young people and I wouldn't be good at the things I want to do if I didn't continue to connect with them, but at the same time, I'm drifting. I know there will be a time when I age out of what I'm doing...I'm just not sure it's now.
But if you do hear of things in DC/Metro area, let me know. I'd even think about travelling Baltimore-ward. And honestly, if the right opportunity opened in the right place that wasn't DC Metro, I'd think about it.
My geek buttons were tweaked today by the story on NPR about statistical analysis about the likelyhood of low-ranked teams beating high ranked ones in the NCAA basketball tournament. And also by the story about mental health professions in the military. I hate math...but things like that bastketball statistics story are interesting. And I kinda like basketball...for a girly girl, I do enjoy sports.
Shopped today...picked up a new bookcase, but need help carrying it in from the car. Also random CVS things and random Target things. I found (finally) the thing I wanted for hanging the ironing board and iron. I try not to shop without a list, but when I do make a list I make it with essentials and things I'll buy on sale because they're not essential yet. I'm glad I got the bookcase-it'll go near the kitchen and mean I can get some of the things that I tend to leave in the foyer because there's just no place to put them out of the way. (I don't use the upper shelves in my kitchen because I can't reach them, so soda tends to live in the foyer)
Karate is kicking my butt. I'm disappointed that I'll miss clinic this time around, but it's still up in the air whether I'm working on that day or not, so it's a no-go. And with my boss due 4/28, I'm not making any plans for days she schedules things...if it happens early, I may get roped into picking up some of her stuff. But it's gotten ten times harder at least in the last two weeks. And even though I was feeling frustrated when I got in, I did get it together. Went through the first Kata tonight. Still step by step and I don't know how I'm not going to forget all of it. Part of me still thinks this is all unreal. But it's not. It's hard work and real. And I still can't do push ups, which frustrates me...I'm trying and trying and I don't feel like I'm making progress. It will come. Just like with everything else.
And giant blisters on my toes from working out on carpet tonight.
But on the way out tonight, the other white belt in the dojo stopped me in the hall and said "You're a real trooper you know." I didn't know what she meant; I turned around and sort of said "Huh?" She said to me "You always give 110 percent. All the time." I said "Thanks. But I have to-what's the point of being here if I'm not?" And it's true. I come because I want to be there, and if I'm not going to give everything I can, why am I there? What benefit is it to me, to the rest of the dojo and most certainly to my instructors, if I'm going to do things half-assed?
Oh yeah, and girl scout cookies do not make a good post-workout dinner. Even if they do have peanut butter.
But if you do hear of things in DC/Metro area, let me know. I'd even think about travelling Baltimore-ward. And honestly, if the right opportunity opened in the right place that wasn't DC Metro, I'd think about it.
My geek buttons were tweaked today by the story on NPR about statistical analysis about the likelyhood of low-ranked teams beating high ranked ones in the NCAA basketball tournament. And also by the story about mental health professions in the military. I hate math...but things like that bastketball statistics story are interesting. And I kinda like basketball...for a girly girl, I do enjoy sports.
Shopped today...picked up a new bookcase, but need help carrying it in from the car. Also random CVS things and random Target things. I found (finally) the thing I wanted for hanging the ironing board and iron. I try not to shop without a list, but when I do make a list I make it with essentials and things I'll buy on sale because they're not essential yet. I'm glad I got the bookcase-it'll go near the kitchen and mean I can get some of the things that I tend to leave in the foyer because there's just no place to put them out of the way. (I don't use the upper shelves in my kitchen because I can't reach them, so soda tends to live in the foyer)
Karate is kicking my butt. I'm disappointed that I'll miss clinic this time around, but it's still up in the air whether I'm working on that day or not, so it's a no-go. And with my boss due 4/28, I'm not making any plans for days she schedules things...if it happens early, I may get roped into picking up some of her stuff. But it's gotten ten times harder at least in the last two weeks. And even though I was feeling frustrated when I got in, I did get it together. Went through the first Kata tonight. Still step by step and I don't know how I'm not going to forget all of it. Part of me still thinks this is all unreal. But it's not. It's hard work and real. And I still can't do push ups, which frustrates me...I'm trying and trying and I don't feel like I'm making progress. It will come. Just like with everything else.
And giant blisters on my toes from working out on carpet tonight.
But on the way out tonight, the other white belt in the dojo stopped me in the hall and said "You're a real trooper you know." I didn't know what she meant; I turned around and sort of said "Huh?" She said to me "You always give 110 percent. All the time." I said "Thanks. But I have to-what's the point of being here if I'm not?" And it's true. I come because I want to be there, and if I'm not going to give everything I can, why am I there? What benefit is it to me, to the rest of the dojo and most certainly to my instructors, if I'm going to do things half-assed?
Oh yeah, and girl scout cookies do not make a good post-workout dinner. Even if they do have peanut butter.
