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Jun. 10th, 2002
A few more thoughts on Pride....
Jun. 10th, 2002 09:17 amI realized this morning that when I talked to my mom yesterday before the Pride Festival, that I'd simply told her I needed to staff a table at a street festival for work for a few hours. Now, considering it was in fact for work, and considering the field I work in, I wonder why I still felt compelled to avoid the gay issue...is it because I would have gotten some speech about hanging out with gay people/not meeting new men or something like that? Is it internalized homophobia?
I'm sure I would have heard something about Pride being not a good place to look for a boyfriend. Frankly, I think it's the perfect place to do that.
There was a serious lack of bisexual presence...I've envied Boston for their fantastically organized bi-community for years. Especially since I'm out of school and meeting fewer people. It does seem like things are happening here though.
( one final note, not related to Pride )
I'm sure I would have heard something about Pride being not a good place to look for a boyfriend. Frankly, I think it's the perfect place to do that.
There was a serious lack of bisexual presence...I've envied Boston for their fantastically organized bi-community for years. Especially since I'm out of school and meeting fewer people. It does seem like things are happening here though.
( one final note, not related to Pride )
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Jun. 10th, 2002 09:13 pmWell...I lost it with my boss today...
She wanted to have a conversation about something to do with communication...and the issue she wanted to address was fine. But she couldn't seem to have a conversation about it...she wanted to scold me, and have that be that. But I'm sorry...you can't just sit there, scold me and not have me want to follow up so I don't make another, similar mistake in the future.
Suffice it to say, that for someone who wanted to have a conversation about communication, I walked away with less respect for her ability to be a good manager than I walked into the room with.
OTOH, we ended up bringing in someone else, to mediate the discussion...and at least I got out the fact that every time I ask for assistance, support or training, she dismisses me, that I hate having supervision with her because it's time for her to talk and get her stuff done, but not a time for me to actually talk about what concerns I've got. And a couple of other things.
I'm frustrated with myself for loosing it with her...but at the same time, the issues needed to be resolved.
I'm still trying to figure out what she meant when she said that in the last month I've changed....
She wanted to have a conversation about something to do with communication...and the issue she wanted to address was fine. But she couldn't seem to have a conversation about it...she wanted to scold me, and have that be that. But I'm sorry...you can't just sit there, scold me and not have me want to follow up so I don't make another, similar mistake in the future.
Suffice it to say, that for someone who wanted to have a conversation about communication, I walked away with less respect for her ability to be a good manager than I walked into the room with.
OTOH, we ended up bringing in someone else, to mediate the discussion...and at least I got out the fact that every time I ask for assistance, support or training, she dismisses me, that I hate having supervision with her because it's time for her to talk and get her stuff done, but not a time for me to actually talk about what concerns I've got. And a couple of other things.
I'm frustrated with myself for loosing it with her...but at the same time, the issues needed to be resolved.
I'm still trying to figure out what she meant when she said that in the last month I've changed....