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I'm not a regular coffee drinker anymore...I gave it up, mostly, finding even decaf too harsh on my stomach most days. It's a shame, because as intolerable as some people find decaf, I drank it, enjoying the taste of coffee-I drink mine with milk and sugar. So I decide to treat myself on the way in and stop for a cup of coffee, despite having had miserable stomach issues for the last few days. Big mistake...not only because my stomach doesn't seem to like that I gave it coffee today, but because the coffee wasn't even good. I'm disappointed.

I must decide what to do about my lease, and soon. If the plan is really to move back up to New York-ish in the fall, I need to figure out how long to renew it for, and I really do need to find a job...which is a frustrating and disheartening prospect. I'm just feeling so inbetween-not quite enough experience for a lot of program management positions, but too experienced for entry level stuff. And really, I worry sometimes that my resume is too queer...between the HIV and LGBT related stuff on there, I wonder if that makes me stick out in a bad way.

My blue crazeberry chapstick makes me happy. And makes me want to kiss people. And makes me think of danger_chick.

Admittedly, I'm looking forward to the three day weekend...there's stuff to do, and I'm wondering which will win out-my desire to do stuff, or my energy level. I will put together the stuff about the lobbying day that I'm doing next week, for anyone who is interested. (Be warned-I'm anti-parental notification laws, and my stuff will almost certainly be slanted in that direction. If you happen to disagree...oh well.)

I could fuss about not spending tomorrow with any of my sweeties...but I'm not. Because more important is that I know how they feel about me, and I don't have to be with them tomorrow to know it. But...I have some squirmy feelings about whether or not to acknowledge Valentine's Day with partners...how do you figure out if you're serious enough, if you're the Valentine's Day type, if you've been together long enough to warrant acknowledgement of it as a significant day and so on? How do you determine what's appropriate or not?

Oh...and that site I told you guys about last week-the one where I could give out condoms on request, but not tell the kids I could do that. I got them to ask! It was really easy, too. I was allowed to go through the 14 steps to using a condom (which, according to aquariumgirl is amusing when I do it, but which I apparently left the "Get the penis hard" step out of.[1]) But anyway, during the demo, I took a strip of condoms out of my bag to demonstrate how to check the expiration date. And while I was waiting for the elevator to go downstairs, several kids came up to me and asked if they could have condoms. I can only hope the word spreads.

I also had a kid admit to marijuana related erectile disfunction last week. He's 17, and admitted it in front of the entire group...which shocked me. Not because of the inability to get it up, but because I was surprised that a 17 year old male would admit that he couldn't get an erection in front of his friends.


Drat. Despite having had my review, my check doesn't include my raise. Which is of indeterminate amount so far. So long as it covers my rent increase, it's fine.

[1] I pointed out that I work with teenagers...and if I tell them to like, think about mangoes, they'll get erections. Really.