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After wondering if going to New Jersey this weekend was a good idea, I've come back certain that yes, in fact it was a good idea.

More later when I figure out exactly what to say...

Good Idea After All

I'll go ahead and post this now, because just about everyone I wanted to let know with a phone call has recieved one already.

As you probably know, if you read my journal regularly, I went to New Jersey on Saturday. And worried about whether it was a good idea.

Saturday night, shortly before midnight, I got engaged.

Yes. You read correctly.

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Okay, I realize some of you are probably looking at this and saying "Wait a second, I didn't even know she was dating a guy. But yes, that's been rather quiet, because I wasn't sure what was going on, or where it was headed, and it turned into this far faster than I'd expected.

I am happy. And surprised. And terrified, and apparently a whole host of normal emotions. The best way I can describe it is these crazy mood swings that are going from ecstatic to "what in the world did I say I'd do?"

And having crazyguilt about some things...like the fact that I can do this because this person happens to be a guy.

Mostly I'm happy.

There is a bit of irony-the only thing I have that involves wedding planning is a book about planning same sex weddings that I must have inherited somewhere.

I'm glad there is love in my life. I'm glad that my partners support me. I'm glad for many things.

What would mean a great deal to me, is for those of my friends who have created long term partnerships with the people in their lives, and also, who have gotten engaged, and gone through this process to share their advice and experiences with with me here.

Thank you all.