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The thing is, not doing it doesn't resolve anything either.

There are some things I need to do that I've been avoiding. I've been avoiding them because doing them means that I am actually leaving. Making plans to see certain friends, doing more packing than I have, things like that. I don't really want to avoid it til the last second and do it haphazardly, but not doing it...not doing it means that I don't have to think about how scared I am.

Not calling the utility companies to arrange termination of service means I don't have to think about what I'm doing next, and about all the things I don't know about. All the things I don't know how to do, and everything that's uncertain (some of which is not for public knowledge yet.)

Not packing isn't helping. Neither is not calling people who I want to see. It'll get done. I just need to cheer up a bit.

Wait a minute Mr. Postman

The letter carrier knocked on my door today, with a package. And he said to me, "What is it? It feels like nothing."

I told him "that's exactly what it is. It's a box of styrofoam packing peanuts."

Thank you wispfox