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Oct. 8th, 2004 02:19 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
geminigirlThe thing is, not doing it doesn't resolve anything either.
There are some things I need to do that I've been avoiding. I've been avoiding them because doing them means that I am actually leaving. Making plans to see certain friends, doing more packing than I have, things like that. I don't really want to avoid it til the last second and do it haphazardly, but not doing it...not doing it means that I don't have to think about how scared I am.
Not calling the utility companies to arrange termination of service means I don't have to think about what I'm doing next, and about all the things I don't know about. All the things I don't know how to do, and everything that's uncertain (some of which is not for public knowledge yet.)
Not packing isn't helping. Neither is not calling people who I want to see. It'll get done. I just need to cheer up a bit.
There are some things I need to do that I've been avoiding. I've been avoiding them because doing them means that I am actually leaving. Making plans to see certain friends, doing more packing than I have, things like that. I don't really want to avoid it til the last second and do it haphazardly, but not doing it...not doing it means that I don't have to think about how scared I am.
Not calling the utility companies to arrange termination of service means I don't have to think about what I'm doing next, and about all the things I don't know about. All the things I don't know how to do, and everything that's uncertain (some of which is not for public knowledge yet.)
Not packing isn't helping. Neither is not calling people who I want to see. It'll get done. I just need to cheer up a bit.
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Date: 2004-10-08 05:41 pm (UTC)no subject
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