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Mar. 26th, 2009 09:00 pmI am so angry right now it is not even possible to describe.
And while angry is a reasonable emotion at the moment, I'm sure the level of anger is not helped by the other circumstances-the fact that Naomi refused to take a nap today, that she's declared it to be playtime a few hours after she's gone to bed and won't settle back down to sleep, the fact that![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
zedrikcayne is working ridiculous hours, still (it's been two months-you know Sims get pissed off if you keep them away from home/families too long-you would think that the company who makes them would remember that when it comes to dealing with their employees,) the fact that with him gone so much it's a little difficult to take care of myself (shower, eat, etc) and the particular point in my menstrual cycle (at least as best I can guess.)
There are some truly wonderful single parents out there. I knew that I wasn't one of them from the beginning, that I needed someone to balance me out, and that's why I told Cayne that I didn't want to parent by myself. I'm seriously at the end of the line with the ridiculous work hours. A friend of mine pointed out recently that I knew what I was getting in to when I got married, and suggested that I think of it like a doctor being on call. But it's not. If he were a deployed soldier or sailor, if he were a police officer or firefighter or doctor, or someone doing good, essential work, I wouldn't be quite so angry about it. And at the same time, most of those jobs don't involve two or more months on end of late nights...doctors are on call once every N days, firefighters work n days on/y days off. So it's not the same thing, and honestly, the profits of his company are not the same as the greater good. It's not quite to the level of EA Spouse's complaints, but it certainly pushes the buttons. Especially now that there's a child involved.
He's happy. He loves what he's doing. But the strain this puts on us as a family...sometimes it doesn't feel worth it. But in the end, I suppose it's worth it.
I'm going to ignore the toys on the floor, the dishes that need to be done, and see if I can unwind while watching a little Grey's Anatomy.
And while angry is a reasonable emotion at the moment, I'm sure the level of anger is not helped by the other circumstances-the fact that Naomi refused to take a nap today, that she's declared it to be playtime a few hours after she's gone to bed and won't settle back down to sleep, the fact that
zedrikcayne is working ridiculous hours, still (it's been two months-you know Sims get pissed off if you keep them away from home/families too long-you would think that the company who makes them would remember that when it comes to dealing with their employees,) the fact that with him gone so much it's a little difficult to take care of myself (shower, eat, etc) and the particular point in my menstrual cycle (at least as best I can guess.)There are some truly wonderful single parents out there. I knew that I wasn't one of them from the beginning, that I needed someone to balance me out, and that's why I told Cayne that I didn't want to parent by myself. I'm seriously at the end of the line with the ridiculous work hours. A friend of mine pointed out recently that I knew what I was getting in to when I got married, and suggested that I think of it like a doctor being on call. But it's not. If he were a deployed soldier or sailor, if he were a police officer or firefighter or doctor, or someone doing good, essential work, I wouldn't be quite so angry about it. And at the same time, most of those jobs don't involve two or more months on end of late nights...doctors are on call once every N days, firefighters work n days on/y days off. So it's not the same thing, and honestly, the profits of his company are not the same as the greater good. It's not quite to the level of EA Spouse's complaints, but it certainly pushes the buttons. Especially now that there's a child involved.
He's happy. He loves what he's doing. But the strain this puts on us as a family...sometimes it doesn't feel worth it. But in the end, I suppose it's worth it.
I'm going to ignore the toys on the floor, the dishes that need to be done, and see if I can unwind while watching a little Grey's Anatomy.
