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[geminigirl]

I am so angry right now it is not even possible to describe.

And while angry is a reasonable emotion at the moment, I'm sure the level of anger is not helped by the other circumstances-the fact that Naomi refused to take a nap today, that she's declared it to be playtime a few hours after she's gone to bed and won't settle back down to sleep, the fact that zedrikcayne is working ridiculous hours, still (it's been two months-you know Sims get pissed off if you keep them away from home/families too long-you would think that the company who makes them would remember that when it comes to dealing with their employees,) the fact that with him gone so much it's a little difficult to take care of myself (shower, eat, etc) and the particular point in my menstrual cycle (at least as best I can guess.)

There are some truly wonderful single parents out there. I knew that I wasn't one of them from the beginning, that I needed someone to balance me out, and that's why I told Cayne that I didn't want to parent by myself. I'm seriously at the end of the line with the ridiculous work hours. A friend of mine pointed out recently that I knew what I was getting in to when I got married, and suggested that I think of it like a doctor being on call. But it's not. If he were a deployed soldier or sailor, if he were a police officer or firefighter or doctor, or someone doing good, essential work, I wouldn't be quite so angry about it. And at the same time, most of those jobs don't involve two or more months on end of late nights...doctors are on call once every N days, firefighters work n days on/y days off. So it's not the same thing, and honestly, the profits of his company are not the same as the greater good. It's not quite to the level of EA Spouse's complaints, but it certainly pushes the buttons. Especially now that there's a child involved.

He's happy. He loves what he's doing. But the strain this puts on us as a family...sometimes it doesn't feel worth it. But in the end, I suppose it's worth it.

I'm going to ignore the toys on the floor, the dishes that need to be done, and see if I can unwind while watching a little Grey's Anatomy.

Comments

[rockstarbob.livejournal.com]

Oh, Erika. I'm so sorry. And I totally relate. Catch me on IM if you feel like it sometime and we'll commiserate.

[vix.livejournal.com]

My SO knew exactly which group you were talking about as I started describing the hours to him.

I can commiserate. Not to the same degree, and we don't have a small child, but damn, I can imagine how Nth-times worse it is for you at this point. And I agree on the "greater good" issue; I've tried to think of it as a doctor on call, but it aint the same situation. Nobody's fucking dying if they can't play their game one night, but the company sure seems to believe it's the same thing.

[wait.livejournal.com]

I'm just nodding.

I get upset about the work/home balance with J -- and I'm sure its not even close to ZC's schedule.

For me, its also the additional burden of "but this is what you asked for." I wanted to be a stay-at-home-mom. And I am. And that's almost completely financed by my husband who has to LEAVE to work. Catch-22.

[tronochick.livejournal.com]

I think you are totally within your right to be frustrated by the burden you are shouldering, being on-call 24/7 as mum. I'm certain it's exhausting (in fact, this is the one terrifying reason we are forestalling kids) BUT- you need to be more proactive about your situation.

Get out of the house! Don't feel any guilt about hiring a babysitter or a nanny for a few hours of Nacho-relief once or twice a week. As much as hubby is at work, slaving away (admittedly having fun while doing it) he still gets a lunch break, a few minutes away from his job, so why shouldn't you? Clearly, all these extra hours are translating into extra money, money you deserve to use to solve your own problems.

Hire the Molly Maids to come in once a week and clean the house for you, while you take Nacho to the park, or to the store, or drop her off at a day care or baby sitter and take the time for your self.

You've been at this for nearly a year, on-call. As much as you are starting to think about reclaiming your life vis a vis a job, you need to balance being a mum with being a human being, and that means you need a break too!

[entirelysonja.livejournal.com]

I'm going to ignore the toys on the floor, the dishes that need to be done, and see if I can unwind while watching a little Grey's Anatomy.

Seems reasonable to me.

For what it's worth, I do not view my job as SAHM of two young children to involve cooking, cleaning, grocery shopping, laundry, etc. Yes, I do sometimes get those things done while I'm alone with the kids. It varies depending on the stages the kids are in at any given time and what's going on with me. But mostly, those things get done when John is around. And quite often, we either do them together or he does them.

I'm sorry that you're having such a rough time right now. When will alpha be over?

[fairion.livejournal.com]

It is hard when your expectations don't jive reality no matter the reason good or bad, reasonable or unreasonable. *hugs* I hope it ends soon.

[baratron.livejournal.com]

Sorry that you feel so awful. Do you have any local friends that you can get together with? Anyone that you trust to give you some respite from your job for a while - whichever part of it is the problem?