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[geminigirl]

My last day was officially anounced at the staff meeting this morning. It's a bit daunting to know that it's a month away. I know there will be a going away ish thing for me, and that they will work very hard at keeping my going away card away until I actually get it.

I have mixed feelings about leaving. There's a time to move on, but I also like what I do, and leaving that is hard. And it's also hard to not know whats next.

I'm glad I went to shirleym and tactisle's this weekend. It was good to spend time in the company of old friends, and think about what I'm coming back to. Someone, I think it was bensong1 talked about community. And that's really what it is...it's a community. It's a group of people who have evolved and grown, and shared lifecycle events, births, breakups, falling in love, celebrations, death, the whole thing. I left, and yet stayed connected.

As for Cayne and I...it was nice. Nice to be together, nice to see each other, nice to spend time. There was one particularly vulnerable moment when Cayne did something and I started crying and since it wasn't exactly the anticipated reaction, it was a bit...awkward. Not bad, just unexpected. And it was fine. I know, I've complained before, but it's time for the chasing each other up and down the east coast to end.

(I think it's adorable that we both still get weepy when we talk about what his Dad said when he toasted us at the party at Cayne's parents place.)

And now, I'm back, I'm finishing projects up, I'm sorting out the final details of things. It'll be over, and I'll have learned and moved on and grown and that's what I'm supposed to be doing.

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(I think it's adorable that we both still get weepy when we talk about what his Dad said when he toasted us at the party at Cayne's parents place.)

awwww aint love grand when you share stuff together like tears:)? Donn and i do that at times and it brings us so close to eachother, which is odd being the man that he is but wonderful that we share those times together :)