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[geminigirl]

Feels like a yo-yo...Monday bad, Tuesday good, Wednesday bad...

I hope it evens out a bit soon. Right now, just tears,

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[tisiphone.livejournal.com]

Ew. *hugs*

[bicrim.livejournal.com]

Oh, love. I know. It is so, so hard. Have you read "Mother Shock" yet? It helped me to know I wasn't so alone in feeling just awful. People talk about post-partum depression, and that is all well and good, but they sometimes make it seem like if you aren't actually depressed, you should be happy with a new baby. I wasn't depressed, I was just miserable. Overwhelmed and anxious and scared and nothing was right.

It does get better, then later it gets much better. If I'm being totally honest, though, my reality is that I enjoy working outside the home more than raising children...but since I think my kids need me to be with them when they are tiny, I am doing the best I can with it. I'm a good mother. It just is really hard, and not always fun.

Threadjacking to say...

[rockstarbob.livejournal.com]

These are all good points. I think I'll have a look at that book.

Re: Threadjacking to say...

[jaclyn.livejournal.com]

I just bought it, it's sitting on the counter. I'm going to take it with me on the plane in late May.

[also-huey.livejournal.com]

Hang in there, Mom. You're doing fine.

[geminigirl]

A beer helps.

[puzzld1.livejournal.com]

I evens out and gets better. 1st month better than first week. Second month better than first. With my girls, there was a a noticeable improvement at 6 weeks after some major bad which seemed to coincide with the 6 week growth spurt.

Ever play D&D? You are a first level player and she's a first level creature. You'll both gain skills.

[mac-arthur-park.livejournal.com]

*hugs* It does get better.

[goingdriftless.livejournal.com]

No advice to give or anything. Just *hug* Hang in there!!

[jaclyn.livejournal.com]

a big hug to you. I'm thinking about how things are going with you.

[geminigirl]

Thanks. As far as I can tell, it's just normal. :)

[jaclyn.livejournal.com]

Seems normal to me, but what do I know???

It's neat to see what I may be up against in a couple months. :-)

[geminigirl]

Eh, I'm lucky. I didn't tear or have a c-section or anything. Ask someone who didn't bounce back physically as well as I did what you might be expecting cause I get the feeling that I'm quite atypical in that regard.

And FWIW, today was quite different. Today involved getting lots of things done.

[rivka.livejournal.com]

It doesn't stay like this.

Just try to get through to the next nap. And then take a nap yourself.

[geminigirl]

That's a good way to think of it. I got through labor one contraction at a time, sometimes I can get through days one nap at a time.

It's honestly hard to tell sometimes how much of the response is really my frustration and how much of it is still being post partum hormonal.

[ashleykristin.livejournal.com]

I guarantee most of it is sleep deprivation and hormones! I've been there! Did you decide to take the goats rue or no?

[geminigirl]

I did decide to take it. Six capsules a day, along with everything else I'm taking (Domperidone, Fenugreek, Blessed Thistle and Nettle.) And oatmeal cookies, since I find the texture of oatmeal too repulsive for words and the smell also about the same. So oatmeal cookies with chopped apricots and chocolate chips.

My husband keeps reminding me that I smell like maple syrup. And that's fine with me.

[ashleykristin.livejournal.com]

Whatever works hun!

[geminigirl]

Exactly. It's all the stuff that helps and learning to accept that things are the way they are, and that whatever Naomi gets is good for her.

[jaclyn.livejournal.com]

Oh good, that's wonderful to hear. :-D

Curious - do you plan on writing a birth story?

[geminigirl]

I've been working on it in dribs and drabs. I'm hoping to get it finished in the next few days.

[wolfden.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

It really just takes time to even out. I think it was about 6 weeks before things evened out here.

Hang in there.

[fairion.livejournal.com]

*hugs* it is alot of hormonalness made worse by the domperidome. It will get better but it is going to take awhile. I have a hard time remembering Froggy's life between birth and the time I stopped the domperidome. It is a blur of crying and worrying and being stressed. But ever minute of it was worth it. Ever drop of breast milk helps and you can use it as guilt material later -hehehe

[bangfrog.livejournal.com]

Hugs! Take care of yourself! Its a lot all at once, and it can take months for the hormone and sleep dep to level out.

I resorted to a postpartum doula for a few weeks; gave me something to mark that the days were passing.