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geminigirlI woke up at 6:45 yesterday, as usual, looked out my window and ignored my alarm (though I did listen to NPR as I drifted) until 7:22, when my cell phone, which was in the other room began to ring. It was my boss, letting me know that our office was closed!
Yay for snowdays.
I took a long walk outdoors after the snow stopped. I played in the snow with a woman who had never seen snow before. I took Beta out. He disapproves of snow. I made comfort food. I tried to fix my computer...it's too sick for me to fix.
I also watched "And the Band Played On" and drew an important comclusion. If I keep doing what I'm doing at work, at the frenetic pace I'm going, I'm going to kill myself. Simply put, I won't be able to keep going. So I'm going to slow down. I'm still bad at putting it aside, at letting go when I need to, but I'm going to think about that more.
And I think going back to school is the right thing. I had some serious conversations about it when I was home for Thanksgiving. My parents support the decision, my Mom thinks I should be teaching. And I like the idea of staying connected to my passions...HIV, adolescent sexuality, glbt issues, women's health stuff, but still having a chance to do it in a different way. The being in the trenches is hard work, and I'm glad I'm doing it, but there will be a torch-passing time. Emotionally I'm prepared for that-but I'm not sure I'm prepared for what it means careerwise, etc.
It's an interesting time early December. I'm amazed at the fact that I've been at this job nearly a year. (It'll be a year next week...yay for annual evaluations and perhaps raises.) More on that later, but I need to water plants and get going. It's the weekend.
Oh, and my computer is toast at home...so I probably won't be online again til Monday at work. Have a good weekend and if I don't answer you, it's nothing personal.
Yay for snowdays.
I took a long walk outdoors after the snow stopped. I played in the snow with a woman who had never seen snow before. I took Beta out. He disapproves of snow. I made comfort food. I tried to fix my computer...it's too sick for me to fix.
I also watched "And the Band Played On" and drew an important comclusion. If I keep doing what I'm doing at work, at the frenetic pace I'm going, I'm going to kill myself. Simply put, I won't be able to keep going. So I'm going to slow down. I'm still bad at putting it aside, at letting go when I need to, but I'm going to think about that more.
And I think going back to school is the right thing. I had some serious conversations about it when I was home for Thanksgiving. My parents support the decision, my Mom thinks I should be teaching. And I like the idea of staying connected to my passions...HIV, adolescent sexuality, glbt issues, women's health stuff, but still having a chance to do it in a different way. The being in the trenches is hard work, and I'm glad I'm doing it, but there will be a torch-passing time. Emotionally I'm prepared for that-but I'm not sure I'm prepared for what it means careerwise, etc.
It's an interesting time early December. I'm amazed at the fact that I've been at this job nearly a year. (It'll be a year next week...yay for annual evaluations and perhaps raises.) More on that later, but I need to water plants and get going. It's the weekend.
Oh, and my computer is toast at home...so I probably won't be online again til Monday at work. Have a good weekend and if I don't answer you, it's nothing personal.
