Variations on a Theme

[geminigirl]

I hate performance evaluations. I can handle doing others fairly well; I tend to be a harsh critic but not too much-except when it comes to self reflection.

I managed to get the numbers into the slots on this evaulation...now I need to fill in the "strengths and development parts"

I don't know what to write...I have no idea what I'm doing.

Comments

[cyan-blue.livejournal.com]

How much impact does this actually have on anything? Does it impact your salary / bonus / permanent record, or does it simply give you and your boss what to talk about during the formal evaluation?

Think about what you've accomplished this year; about ways in which you've benefitted the company in terms of production or social atmosphere. Think of the times you've come home feeling good/proud about something, and think of the things you still struggle with.

Good luck,
Geri

[geminigirl]

Potentially, it could impact my salary. I'm not exactly sure how it fits into the grant structure, I do know that there's something to do with raises in there.

I started last year, on a new grant...they hired three of us all at once. I've covered my boss's job more than a few times, and sometimes I'm resentful of that. OTOH, I was the only person to meet/exceed all deliverables for their grant in the department last year. We had a meeting earlier this week where we reviewed grant deliverables-my main grant involves 10 programs-grant year began in October, and I've gotten four done. They were sort of dismissive-like "Oh you'll finish, no problem lets move on. And it was fine. I have seven sites on my pending/potential list. And that's all good.

The problem I have is that I don't know if I've made enough progress in the areas I wanted to improve in between the probationary review nine months ago, and now. I know that the same things are still challenging to me-lack of substance abuse knowledge, for example-even though I've made serious efforts to get more training to go to programs, workshops etc. Making cold calls to sites, and networking. Believe it or not, new people make me nervous sometimes.

Most days I come home from work some combination of satisfied and exhausted. I love my job. I enjoy what I do, and the people I work with and I think I'm pretty good at it. The question for me is, "Am I better now at it than nine months ago, and how?"