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Aug. 13th, 2004 10:34 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
geminigirlI think the thing that scares me most about entering an interfaith marriage is Christmas.
Christmas. It's seems to be a nice day, doesn't it. Unless you're Jewish.
I'm a little sad at letting go of my own Christmas traditions. Even Jewish girls have them...sleep late, indulgent shower, Chinese food and movies. It may not seem like much, but when it's what you do every Christmas, it's important. If your family tradition was pancakes every Christmas, you might miss it too, even if it seems like not a big deal.
And I'm terribly afraid of feeling like a fifth wheel. Because Christmas isn't my holiday, and never will be, I'm not sure how much I'll be able to love and embrace Christmas as a family celebration, and let go of the religious underpinnings it has. Christmas to me, no matter who I've celebrated it with, (and I have joined friends for the holiday before) has always had religious trappings-even in the most non-religious of households. It feels like something that I don't belong at, or as a part of. I've always enjoyed the time with friends, but Christmas makes me feel awkward.
I really do want to be able to enjoy the things that Christmas is supposed to be, but I don't know if I know how to let go of the things that Christmas means to me.
Christmas. It's seems to be a nice day, doesn't it. Unless you're Jewish.
I'm a little sad at letting go of my own Christmas traditions. Even Jewish girls have them...sleep late, indulgent shower, Chinese food and movies. It may not seem like much, but when it's what you do every Christmas, it's important. If your family tradition was pancakes every Christmas, you might miss it too, even if it seems like not a big deal.
And I'm terribly afraid of feeling like a fifth wheel. Because Christmas isn't my holiday, and never will be, I'm not sure how much I'll be able to love and embrace Christmas as a family celebration, and let go of the religious underpinnings it has. Christmas to me, no matter who I've celebrated it with, (and I have joined friends for the holiday before) has always had religious trappings-even in the most non-religious of households. It feels like something that I don't belong at, or as a part of. I've always enjoyed the time with friends, but Christmas makes me feel awkward.
I really do want to be able to enjoy the things that Christmas is supposed to be, but I don't know if I know how to let go of the things that Christmas means to me.
