What do you do with an ex-boyfriend...

[geminigirl]

when you're about to get married?

We're not having a formal rehersal, so there's an open-houseish sort of thing planned at my Mom's for members of the bridal party, and a few other family members etc. on Saturday afternoon/evening. And since everyone's at the house, and my bedroom is essentially the way I left it when I moved away after grad school, my room has gotten a pretty thorough cleaning.

Among the things I've found is a pile of old writings by Josh Saitz, who edits Negative Capabilities...I suppose I could track him down and see if he wants any of it. Or I could keep it. I think I'll e-mail him. I have at least one video tape that he'd probably like to have.

And photographs...lots of photographs. Old photos of me, aynjel, points, Peetah (who doesn't have an LJ as far as I know) dieppe and lenniersd (neither one of whom read my journal, but I know that people on my flist know them, and if you could kindly point them at this post, I'd appreciate it.) And other photos from college, of me and Megan (aka Blink)-who I would love to track down, and if anyone reading this has her current e-mail please let me know. I tried to e-mail her before I went to San Francisco, but the mail bounced.

And even more photos...of me and siva_dc and Ava, and cappyhead and shirleym...and and and.

And what do I do with all this stuff? It was amazing the memories it brought back...the feelings that rose up.

I'm incredibly glad that I'm not pining over ex-boyfriends. I looked through the photos and realized how much I've grown and that I really like the person I've grown into. I'm grateful for the memories and experiences preserved in those photos. I'm glad that I've still got some of the same wonderful people in my life who are in those photos, and sad that some of them drifted away.

I like where I'm at. It's not necessarily where I envisioned myself at thirty, but I like where I'm at and where I'm going.

And perhaps if I can get access to a scanner, and permission from people other than me who appear in some of these photos, I'll scan and post them. It might be fun.

Comments

[vvalkyri.livejournal.com]

I think it would be fun, yes.
This was a lovely post, though. Your writing is wonderful,and almost always is.

[zedrikcayne.livejournal.com]

Awww...*smoo*

[pecunium.livejournal.com]

A friend of mine did a post on this topic recently.

Gotta be tossed (http://www.livejournal.com/users/off_coloratura/37202) by off_coloratura

TK

[minikin.livejournal.com]

Whether you scan and post, or merely preserve and store, I think you will happy with keeping these memories in a positive way. I still have the letters I received from my first boyfriend, and I really enjoyed running across them last year -- 27 years later..

[points.livejournal.com]

I'm pretty sure aynjel may have Megan's last email. I'm not sure mine would work anymore. I haven't heard from her in some five or so years now, maybe more.

[dieppe.livejournal.com]

No... but thanks to Google's blogsearch I have happened to wander by... since you mentioned me. So wait, do you know me?! :)