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We've hit the point at which really, no one would stop labor if it were true labor. This is an overwhelming thought considering the state of readiness. You know that silly ready.gov website, or whatever it is...we're sort of the antithesis of it. The house is a mess, there's almost nothing ready for the baby, and seriously...I'm not mentally or emotionally ready to become "mom" yet.

I said to [livejournal.com profile] pinkfish last week when we had dinner that I was sad to be giving up some of the parts of my previous life, even if it's for a short while. That I missed it and that I don't think I'd given myself permission or space to grieve for that. I'm looking forward to change but also overwhelmed by how massive the change is. It seems to me like a bigger change than getting married or moving to Florida, but one that I certainly chose willingly and wanted. Although perhaps without the whole big picture.

We finished our childbirth classes. Cayne says he feels completely ready for his part of labor and delivery and that makes me feel good. I'm seeing my OB once a week now. Last week I had the group B strep swab (and no rectal swab, either, which seems to be routine for some people.)

I've had some serious ab pain as muscles there have stretched...really tender abs. Beyond anything I've done before in terms of overworking muscles. The baby makes some movements though, where you can see my belly move as the baby shifts. Even more so is the entertainment of "poke the foot"-it's not difficult to find where the feet are wedged into my abdomen-they're easy to feel, and one can poke at the foot and get a response. It's actually pleasant...I enjoy it and I think I'll miss the kicking when things are done.

We'll see what happens next. It's just a big new roller coaster ride.

Date: 2008-03-11 10:03 am (UTC)

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