What is there to say?

[geminigirl]

Dad died. We had a funeral. We sat shiva. I spent my 40th birthday alone on the autotrain. We went on a really long trip this summer. Two weeks at my Mom's with the girls, then two weeks on the road with Andrew, the girls, my mom and my younger brother visiting a whole lot of places (Denver, Four Corners, the Grand Canyon, Las Vegas, Los Angeles, San Francisco.) We saw my new niece in Los Angeles. I fought with my mother a lot. Everyone fought a lot. We came home. The girls started school. (There's a first day of school photo on Facebook, but if you want to see it I can show you.) Miriam started kindergarten. Miriam continues to frustrate me and freak me out. Naomi is growing up, and I know the bedtime snuggles will stop someday and so I soak them up as much as I can because just like the sweet, fresh baked baby smell disappeared from her head, so will the need for bedtime snuggles. I thought for a while she might be over having a bedtime song, but that seems to have come back and I'm okay with it. I volunteer with Girl Scouts. I'm still trying to figure out who I am and what I want to do.

There is nothing wonderful or exciting, it's all kind of grey and circular. Just one day, one foot, time folds onto itself and we all keep going.

Comments

[also-huey.livejournal.com]

Remember: you can't spell "America" without 'me' and "Erica".

[tisiphone.livejournal.com]

Hello again.

[geminigirl]

Hello. I read things. I just don't have much to say about my own life right now. Because grey.

[tisiphone.livejournal.com]

I understand. I feel somewhat the same.

[emperor]

I hope some Fun comes your way really soon.

[jpallan.livejournal.com]

May the Almighty comfort you amongst the mourners of Zion and Jerusalem.

[3-black-cats.livejournal.com]

I send good thoughts.

[aubkabob.livejournal.com]

Being an adult doesn't seem nearly as exciting as I thought it was going to be when I was a kid. Even when there's big, changing events, it just seems like time marches on and there's never much to report.

I miss being a kid sometimes.

[surrealestate.livejournal.com]

But we do keep going.

[geminigirl]

Because the other choice is...

[bicrim.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Life has been hard for a lot of us lately, I think. I'll tell you what I tell my Elliot when he gets grey--when we feel bad, we remember that we won't always feel bad. xoxoxox