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My ex girlfriend's dog died very suddenly this morning; I woke up to the e-mail about it. She was a wonderful human to her dog, and I loved him very much. I bought him some venison sausages the other day, which I hadn't yet dropped off at her place. This woman is one of the best pet owners I know, and that makes it even more painful. There were just no signs of illness until Saturday evening.

Pet owners among us know about the vital role our animals play in our lives. We know how connected we get to our creatures. Much as I complain about the fur Oblivion leaves around the house, how she wakes me with her toys in the middle of the night, or leaves the toys in my bed, and even when she makes me crazy because she's thrown up in her food dish again, I do cherish the relationship I have with her. I do appreciate the warmth and the cuddling. There's the way she comes over and licks my fingers if I'm on the couch, or when she's under the desk, and wants my attention how she'll lick my toes (which makes me squeal) or stretch herself up and pull on my arm with a front paw until I pay attention. And she has to climb on aquariumgirl and shed on her everytime she comes over-it must be especially exciting because Oblivion is all white, and aquariumgirl's clothing is almost always dark. Oblivion also insists on spending time with me at bedtime on many evenings...climbing on my chest while I read, and purring and staying until I fall asleep.

Give those you love in your life some extra attention today-the people and the creatures. Let them know they're important to you.

I have to go...there's a cat who is demanding breakfast.

Interesting....

What Kind of Relationship is Right For You?

I've seen a lot of people take this quiz...and everyone so far that I've seen has returned the same results. Conincidence?

Sinking

I'm sitting here and dwelling on what I didn't get done this weekend...

Didn't get the kitchen floor mopped, didn't get the laundry done, didn't get the fridge cleaned, didn't clean the catbox and a half a dozen other things that I wanted to do.

I did sort of get the tub scrubbed. And I got groceries, which was a must. I'd been complaining since last week that I had no juice. I've stocked up-fruit punch, apple, pineapple...

But it's so frustrating. I had a couple of good days, and now I'm way way back. I took two days off last week...that's a lot. Still no word on what's going on, which drives me crazy. I'd like to have me back. Not dragging around can't focus, not sure what to do next, grocery shopping is overwhelming me...but me who got stuff done. Me who had energy and wanted to do things. Well, you get the idea.

I need to not dwell on what I'm not doing and be satisfied with what I am doing. That's so hard though, because I'm acutely aware of the difference between a few months back and now.

I'm considering another cat. I'd like one, but I'm not sure if Oblivion would. Kittens won't be ready for another two months though, so I have time to think.

Friday night I was ill enough that when rdhdsnippet offered to drive up here to take me to the emergency clinic for my health plan, I actually considered it. It was already late enough though that I decided to just sleep off whatever was going on. It helped some. It's important to have friends like that in one's life though...and I appreciate her offer more than she could know. My fever had spiked about four degrees higher than it's been hovering at...so it went from "low grade" to "scary". It's gone down at least two degrees, so it's higher than it was, but I'm at least coherent and mobile.

points had let me know he was going to be in town, and staying with geekchick. We had a Foo for him today for lunch. It was quite a treat. I miss having the Dragon on this coast. He's a treat, and it was nice to have a bit of cuddling with him. If I can ever get it together to go visit him and aynjel it would be fabulous. Lunch was fun, lots of random chatter, followed by ice cream. I will have to take curiousangel up on the conversation we had about finding a good crab dinner though.

I found a wonderful job in New York. I'm wavering on whether or not I should apply. It's fabulous, very similar to what I'm doing now, but do I really want to leave here? I've established something resembling a life. I have lovers and friends, and a job I like. But I have said I want to go back to NY. Or to Boston. Or out to the Bay Area. But it would be tremendous upheaval for my life, and starting over in some ways...although I do have friends in Brooklyn. I'm not sure what the best thing at this point is to do.

I miss aquariumgirl and I hope she's not going to see Goldmember without me. I also hope she's having a fabulous time, and can't wait to see photos and postcards.

Here's to hoping this is a better week than the last two have been.

*sigh*